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10/9/08 - 1:32 am] |
So the other day i ventured into starbucks with a good friend and ended up purchasing a coffee of sorts. What I didn't realize was that they now have little tid bits writen on all of their cups. So I picked up my cup and started reading, and i thought it was freaking brilliant. So much so that i actually took the cup and brought it home. What can I say I'm somewhat of a packrat :P.
So here it is folks.
The way I see it #141
I used to feel so alone in the city. All thoes gazillions of people and then me, on the outside. Because how do you meet a new person? I was very stumped by this for many years. And then I realized, you just say, "hi." They may ignore you. Or you may marry them. And that possibility is worth that one word.
So I thought that was pretty freaking awesome and had to share.
The end.
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| Starlight - Muse |
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9/30/08 - 1:37 am] |
Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die
Starlight
I will be chasing the starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore
Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms
My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive
But I'll never let you go
If you promised not to fade away
Never fade away
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms
Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die
And I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms
I just wanted to hold
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| Emotions a Muk |
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8/19/08 - 1:45 pm] |
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I love when I finally sit down and try to express all that I've been going through and the words simply slip away. I spend the nights tossing and turning at images embedded in my head from simple words spoken on a whim. I'm torn in two trying to convince myself of lies and think they were simply mistakes. Mistakes simply meant to break the ice but in turn brought whirlwinds and destruction, unseen pain. I contemplate my options, left or right, alone or seccond best. I try to make sense of something so simple, like a slap in the face it hits me. Still, though the pain is so real and the situation simple... I feel the need to press on, to try again, simply out of fear of being left alone once again. My mind clouded with love and fear and i'm unable to make a smart decision so i now sit back and I wait. I wait for the day where I can take no more, or the day that I walk down the isle. Both equally dangerous, both far away and pose a discomforting thought. As the years pass i fall deeper into myself, I simply hope that I can still climb out and find who I am.
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| YArrr |
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6/16/08 - 11:09 pm] |
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So the time has come, the time for the hunt of the century, Job hunting. I've finally decided to get off my lazy ass and get my resumes out there because zellers has simply become RIDICULOUS. I have no patience for 15 hours a week anymore, I simply can't do it. So tomorrow i get to run around the mall passing out papers in hopes that someone will call me back. And i'm far to lazy to write anymore... YAY!
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| LAwlz Florida |
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5/3/08 - 8:08 pm] |
This is just going to be short cause i don't have the engergy to make it longer lol.
So we went to the beach yesterday and Kristie managed to step on a stingray and got stung... I laughed. Soo many cute lifeguards. Goood times.
...The end.
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| Shopping = Love |
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4/30/08 - 10:57 pm] |
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So i'm already being slack wth this and it's only day 5ish? Yeah I'm horrible I KNOW! Regardless I'm not sure when i last filled you people in so I'll just pretend like yesterday and today are the only days that need to be updated... Mmmkay? Good.
Yesterday consisted of... Actually that's a good question, i'm not really 100% sure what went on yesterday, I'm pretty sure we woke up around 10 waited around for the pantry to be filled (place where we can get free food) then we headed off to the grocery store to get the rest of the food that we'll need to survive. So our lovely grocery store trip took up a massive chunk of the day, atleast a good 2 hours of life. What I found hilarious though was we went grocery shopping at walmart. Lawlz I love the states. After our walmart excurion we went back to the house and packed away all our fun food and took a nap, and what a fabulous nap it was. Right after my little nap we headed out the door to ellington(sp?) to a prime outlet. We ended up leaving nathan home and dad Kristie and I did some seeerious shopping. I bought 2 dresses!!! Lindsay! Owns Dresses!! And They're cute!! This is simply ridiculous. So it took us 5 hours to make it through the entire mall and even then that was skipping every seccond store and we hadn't really found to many things, then with 15 minutes before everything was supposed to close we found THE GAP! Heaven of all outlet stores, I shit you not. WIthen 15 minutes I had spent 80$ and had 6 new shirts... maybe 7 I dont remember. It was some pretty sweet shopping times. We got home around 11 and crashed with an early wakeup time of 8 in the morning.
So last night i have to say truly was the WORST sleep of my life, I've come to the conclusion that I only really got a full 2 hours of sleep. It seemed like no matter what I did, I was destined to be miserable and unable to sleep, and it was a total bummer because today was when i needed the most amount of energy. Today we hit up Bush Gardens, now let me tell you that place is hella exciting. I had my first upsidedown rollercoaster experience, love it so much that I went back on another 2 times. Go SOAKED on this massive flume ride thing, not a very exciting ride until the last two secconds of it, then it's simply fabulous. I do have to say I think my favorite part of the day was when I was able to feed some birds. They have a small open part of the park and you walk into this cage and you can buy nector and swarms of birds will come and land on you and eat the nector from this tiny little cup. Its freaking awsome! I had birds on my shoulders in my hair on my boob, haha you should see the pictures! One of them just sat on my shoulder biting my bra strap though, I think he was a little confused, but even with the pain it was freaking awesome. We didn't get to do all the rides or see even half the park today, but no worries because we go back tomorrow, I just hope that I feel alot better than that i can get some good sleep tonight, because There was two occasions i just broke out in tears today from being completely exhausted. So all in all I have to say florida is pretty freakin sweet, Sickness makes it hard to enjoy but still freakin sweet. <33 peace
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| Sooooooo Siiiick! |
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4/27/08 - 9:48 pm] |
So last nights sleep was hell, and consisted of me waking up every 45 minutes because of this stupid cold/flu thing that I've been stuck with for weeks. It makes me feel as though I may die! My ears are killing me, and my throat and head. Sickest I've been in ages. Mind you, moving on... We woke up this morning and headed off to church. We ended up going to Tampa Underground, it's a meeting of a whole bunch of micro churches that happens every sunday. I have to say the atmosphere of the place is amazing, and it's exactly what we've been looking for, for our church for ages. It's held in a comedy club in downtown Ybor. The speaker was great and the music was good even though I didn't know any of it, but i have to say the service was for sure a little to long.
So after church we ended up going out for lunch with the pastor and paul etc etc at some pasta place, sadly it was only okay, but paul paid for it so it was all good in the end. After the food we ended up heading further in town to check out some shopping and I managed to find myself some good shampooh. Not the most eventful fun day, but we did get some stuff done that was needed so all in all it's not so terrible, also the rest of the days wont be spent in the same way. Or so dad says lol, we certainly will see.
Sorry this is so jumbled and messy I'm just far to tired to try and form proper scentences lol. Peace ouuut!
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| Sunny Idea! |
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4/26/08 - 10:45 pm] |
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Well as some of you may know I took off from Halifax on friday headed for sunny tampa bay florida. I figured I would write a quick entry thowing out the old "we arrived safe and it's beautiful etc etc" but I had a much better idea. I've decided i'm going to try and make it a point to write atleast one entry short or long every day. So i can keep whoever the crap reads this updated, and so I have it later to read for myself... or show my mom lol. It's no fun having to remember everything off the top of your head.
So we arrived last night (Kristie, Nathan and I) at the airport around 9:30 after a long two flights. I have to say the first flight (Halifax to Newerk??no idea how to spell it) was pretty brutal. We got delayed an hour and we were stuck waiting in the plane before we even took off, and this was the smallest thing i had ever seen in my life. Also the fact that I had a cold and serious sinus problems made landing pretty interesting to say the least. Lol i cried. I have to say even though it was a tiny ass plane and not so fun of a trip getting to fly over New York was awesome, the statue of Liberty looked like a tiny lego piece, I was greatly amused. So from Newerk we went on a MASSIVE plane to our final destination.
Today we woke up around 8 and we all took showers and got ready for the beach. We hit up Mcdonalds (I had orange juice yaaaay juice!) then we headed for the beach. We went from sketchy houses and run down neighbourhoods to the most gorgeous houses and hotels i've ever seen. It's ridiculous how the areas just change in a split seccond.
So we spent a good 3 hours on the most gorgoeous beach I've ever seen. White sand, clear water, warm water at that. So gorgeous that i have a feeling we will be spending most of out time here on that very beach. Kristie and nathan burnt, and I somehow managed to get a slight tan, so far things are looking pretty darn swell.
So after the beach we headed off to a MASSIVE church for about 2 hours where we waited in the "laidies loud" while my dad was at a meeting. Fairly boring, but it wasn't so bad in the end. Right after we headed on yet another adventure in search of somewhere to buy some shorts. Us robertson's dont tend to be super prepared lol. We drove all the way to brenton, got cursed at by some crazy bitch, pretty much found the ghetto and wound up at a walmart buying chicken and shorts. Pretty hilarious now that I think of it.
All in all I have to say, we had a pretty okay day, and I think the days will just keep getting better and better, as well as the tan ;). Hope to write again soon.
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| LSKjdlkajglkas |
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4/11/08 - 12:00 am] |
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Oh dear seet jesus I fail at life.... So i had people over to my house for my birthday... and I had no intention of getting drunk but mylissa and victoria pissed me off as well as phil and lesley so I got really upset and got tanked.... I dont remember the night at all and from what I've been told I made a FOOL out of myself. I feel terrible about it, and just kind of want to die a little. -groans-
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| Sweeeetness |
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3/16/08 - 1:52 pm] |
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So lets see whats been up in Lindsay's life in the past little bit... This may require some serious thinking. Now where should I start...
Well the other day I was offered a place to stay, free rent, and free groceries clearly there is a catch. The place I was offered is my grandmother's basement and it would be my own place, and she wouldn't bother me at all. The only thing is I would have to get the groceries, I would have to cook her breakfast and supper, and clean the house once every two weeks. Personally I think that's a fabulous offer. Also in the summer I have a massive pool all to myself. So the deal is when I get back from florida I'm going to try it out for a month and if I like the arrangements it may become permanent.
On that note as i'm sure you know now I'm going to florida in the near future. My dad has to go for a conference and we were offered a place to stay for a very very reasonable price so he's bringing us kids down with him. 2 weeks of fun in the sun with my sister, brother and dad. I'm not going to lie I'm super excited, also it's another chance for me to hang out with Schavar and the slight possibility of seeing my sexy lexi<33 Oh how i love her. Mind you the chance of me seeing her is slim to none, but it's all good because someday we will chill regardless. I'm not worried about it lol.
So I'm going to punch some babies in the face... I just wrote a shitload on this annnnnnd it dissapeared I'm a little angry now... REGARDLESSS LETS CONTINUES -throws a fit-
So i've come to the realization that I'm rather fond of my hair curly... But i look like a tool when I smile.
But I look like even more of a tool when I make silly faces...
Also I look like a 12 year old k thx YAY! ALSO something hilarious... someone told me I looked like Miley Cyrus the other day, I laughed for about 20 minutes. Good times.
So the reason I curled my hair you ask? Well simply I went to another one of Mylissas shindigs. It was a birthday party for two of the guys we work with, George and Adam. I was flipping excited like there was no tomorrow. Mylissa droped Tonya, Victoria and I off at The motel that we would be staying in that night to drop our stuff off and wait for her to get ready, I'm not going to lie best 2 hours of my life, and I'm simply have to show you why.
We be cute cuz!
Adoooorable rofl.
Aweee yeeee We had the most intense picture fest ever! So many hilarious things came from thoes two hours, and I feel like I've never been closer with thoes girls. I'm just a little bummed out Mylissa wasn't around to join in on the action. So Mylissa eventually picked us up we went to the party and everyone had a good time except me. I ended up drinking far to much to fast on an empty tummy and we all know what happens next. But I was fine and I took care of myself brilliantly and there was nothing to worry about. Still a little bummed I missed everything but seriously it was my fault anyway. Reminder EAT FOOD BEFORE WE DRINK K THX.
What other ridiculously insane things have I done in the past little while. OH hahaha Friday night I actually ended up going to a rave with Santana and Trina, one of the best nights of my life, sure my body still hates me for it because i danced for 5 hours straight and was up all night, But omg you have no idea how worth it it was. Totally something I would do again. It would have been better if Geoff had come, mind you it was still wicked fucking awesome. One of these days I'll get that boy to dance with me... One of these days!
So conclusion to that paragraph boyfriend = pussy<3, Rave = ULTIMATE FUN TIMES OF LIFE!!
On the note of Geoff and I, I believe we are doing fantasticly, It was his birthday on saturday and I went over for his family shinding last night, and it was good. I felt a little awkward most fo the night but -shrugs- who wouldn't? We did have a pretty good kiss towards the end of the night and it resulted in the conclusion that he's coming over today after school. Also i get to make him cake on wednesday haha for his birthday / our 4 month. 4 months man! thats insane!! I'm not gonna lie I'm pretty freaking proud of myself.
So i've developed a ridiculous 0bsession for the food network and the whole idea of cooking and baking. I don't know what it is but the thing just excites me, and I freaking love food. I'm almost really excited to move out and have to cook for myself, Mind you i'll be devistated if I don't have the food network at my side, but man I'm sooo stoked.
Anyway I'm done with this for now... and I'll try and make a point to do another entry sooner rather than later, but no promises considering we all know I suck ass at trying to keep up with this. BUT the intention is there.
PEACEOUTT!
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| Holy Poop! |
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2/13/08 - 6:05 pm] |
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I am horrible at this thing! Seriously I don't knwo what it is, but apprently i just have no determination when it comes to online journals. Pretty freakin lame on my part. So i've managed to keep a relationship for the past 3 months, well almost 3 months it will be on the 19th and tomorrow is valentines day. I'm not going to lie I'm the kind of person that hates valentines day with all of my heart, simply because I think it's a fucking commercial bullshit holiday simply to make single people feel like shit and to make tons of money on jewlery, chocolate and flowers. So origionally I told Geoff (the man!) that we weren't going to celebrate and that I thought the entire idea of it was fucking stupid, but then the other day I was out shoppng with a friend and she was buying something for her boyfriend and I realized that I was being very unfair so I decided I would buy him something and suprise him. So I ended up buying him a game, and I'm not going to lie I'm fucking excited about it. It's been sitting in my room for 2 days now and it's driving me up the wall becuase I cant wait to see the reaction on his face when I give it to him. I'm thinking it's going to be priceless.
On another random note I started talking to Alicia again, I ended up seeing her at Zellers the other day and I gave her a MONSTER hug and we decided that we needed some quality hang out time. So I ended up going to the mall with her today and found some AWESOME shit (panties... SHOES.. foooooood) Anyway, she had to work at 5 so I left and came home to get some eats and such and then I'm going back to her place to stay the night. So many thing to talk about, and I'm freaking excitied.
Anway I feel the need to cut this short becuase I feel as though I may pass out from lack of food, also i need to go harass my boyfriend via text messages. We have plans that have to be made lol. Peace out!
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| Fuck this bullshit |
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11/22/07 - 6:41 pm] |
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Christians?! Fuck that they don't know the meaning of compasion... Fuck this.
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| WTF |
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11/22/07 - 8:48 am] |
Life is amazing yet confusing as hell.
Wtf
K thx
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| Isn't it funny? |
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11/20/07 - 12:50 pm] |
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So much has gone on that I don't even know how I'm supposed to feel at this point. Life has been hell with Lexi and Josh so in that sense life has been horrible yet on the other hand yesterday I found myself in utter bliss at the thought that I'm no longer alone. Is it wrong to be so ridiculously happy for myself when all of this other shit is happening? Yes I'm aware that sounds absolutly ridiculous, but really what am I supposed to think? It's like the past month and then some has been utterly horrible and now everything is just working out for me, but not for the people I care about. So on one hand I feel thrilled that things finally seem to be working out for me, yet everyone else around me is miserable. I feel like a jerk about it lol. OHhhhh dear what shall I do with myself?! lol
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| Collide - Jars Of Clay |
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11/11/07 - 12:43 pm] |
"Collide"
Open up your box of sunshine
And smile as confetti comes raining down on you
You feel a lot like the good guy, but do you know why
Everything's so blue
Well, love is fire and the coals are barely burning
Cold fills the emptiness that fills this empty place
I taught you the walk but then you ran away from me
And that's not how it's supposed to be
I I collide, with love as an elusive state of mind
I know there's something else it's supposed to be
I, I collide with love as an elusive state of mind
Something's killing me!
Tearful confessions have watered down and broken down
The chance for unrequited love to finally reach its wall
You're waiting for the axe to fall
Can't you see it lying on the ground?
You could be the best one at cleaning up this mess
Be the best one, be the best one, be the best one
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| If I can't kiss you then what am I supposed to do? |
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11/11/07 - 12:25 pm] |
i shame myself by throwing all of me out on the table simply in hopes of getting a goodnight kiss and a pair of warm arms. Being foolish enough to hope that it's something I can keep forever, though deep inside I know it's just another night long love affair. Though I feel the need to cloud my knowledge with false hopes and silly little dreams and I make the mistake of believeing "How could this not be real?"
You promised you would come for me, so I sit in my dress and wait to be taken away. Yet you still have yet to come, and i'm suffocating in this dress filled with hopes, as each day passes it becomes a tighter noose around my neck and I can no longer breath. So why won't you come and free me from this delusion? Show me the truth, or give me the hopes and dreams that I so long for. Just please don't leave me hanging anymore.
I kiss the air in hopes that you are there.
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| Why should I?! |
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10/24/07 - 12:28 am] |
Why do I bother? I throw myself out on a limb trying to help people and they just shut me out, when they flat out know i've been in the exact same position as them and I've been the one that screwed up... and still they won't take my advice. They wont let me help them from making the same damn stupid mistakes I did. So I have to sit back and watch them screw their lives up, just as I did mine. It's not fair.
Stupid Cunts...
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| NAw cuz! |
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10/22/07 - 3:19 pm] |
I'll be more than fine because I still have my baby -smiles- I love my lexi♥
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| Let's See How Far We've Come |
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10/22/07 - 2:25 pm] |
I've been sitting here staring at the blank screen for a good 10 minutes now. I feel like I've lost all ability to write, yet I know there is so much I could say considering what my life has been like in the past while. It's just as though I can't form the words, and they would much rather stay hidden and locked inside. Mind you why should it matter what I say here, considering no one reads it. So I'm stuck sitting here fighting with myself. Part of me knows it's better to get it out and let the words flow, yet the other part of me is scared for them to come up and out, becuase of the hurt that they'll bring with them. Life hasn't really been the greatest I can tell you that much for sure. Also I come across the conflict of where to start, where to start the story of my screwed up little events and affiars. Maybe I'll do this a little different.
We all know my life hasn't been the greatest, Friends, Heart Surgery, Sickness, Josh mind you my sanity has been realatively kept throughout the entire thing, thanks to Justin. His sarcastic humour can make me laugh no matter how shitty I'm feeling, and his blunt realistic views on things make it that much better. Mind you he's in the process of trying to move and his computer is being a bitch... So I just finished talking to him and apparently he's not going to be on for awhile. So I've lost my sanity doctor, and I'm hoping that things will stay calm until I need him again. Yes I'm aware I make myself sound insane, but I'm fine with that considering it's pretty darn well the truth.
Life is at a point now here I no longer know what I'm going to do with myself, I'm worried about the future and what is going to end up happening to me. I'm worried I'll never find the right job, I'm worried I'll never move out, I'm worried I'll never get to see Lexi, I'm worried I'll never get married, never have children, and grow old alone. There are just so many things brought on by all this uncertainty and I really just don't know what to do with any of it anymore. I almost feel like it's just as good to give up than to try and never get anywhere. Yes I'm aware I'm being "emo" but really I'm over it I don't care what is said about me anymore, because if I did there is no way I would still be around. Thanks to a special someone...
Since this is just coming out as a jumbled bunch of crap right now I think I'm going to end it before I say something that will get me on a rant, my fingers hurt to much for a rant right now ^^. So I shall evnetually get back to you. Someday haha.
~lindsay
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